fade to black

the fray

2007-03-29T03:10:00.000+08:00

i knw its pretty typical radio band. but its pretty catchy. i have the whole album. anyway. if you heard one of their songs. you heard it all. take how to save a life and over my head. they have a different starting that can still be mixed up. and pretty much they all sound the same. except one says how to save a life and the other over my head, overtime or something like that. you get my point anyway. reminds you of artic monkeys.

-------------------------------------

i m pretty sick of working for liron. he obviously wants to hire superman. i dont knw much about business but i sure think thats a lousy way to do one. oh well. last week. havent decided whether i shall work next week. i found out my grandma has a stack of liquor in her place. gordon's gin. that will solve my gin shortage for now. can get marilyn to buy something else. i hope marilyn's good friend dora comes visiting soon. :) haha.

-------------------------------

been thinking about life and all. the past quite abit.maybe its got to do with my impending doom in army. i havent been running so i m pretty screwed. no running shoes and apparently we have to buy the army ones. so that killed off my spirit to buy one so that i have something to wear when i book in and i can train before going in. oh fuck. chicken is going to be my best friend in camp. hope i bunk with mr cheong la. haha. can talk cock all day. i guess we all need to stop taking our lives for granted. friends and family. dont always assume they will be there. like how yr sec sch friends split up in jc and how yr jc friends split after a's and how bobby's gang splits with me starting first. nick going army too. aim. si yin and desiree going overseas. somemore here and there. nvm. got jeff and ah hock. can go back visit them when i book out.

should stop listening to duel of the fates. great song. think its making me emo. damn. life is pathetic.

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

my only one.

2007-03-23T02:00:00.000+08:00

wow. i have never tried being the only parttimer at work. pretty funny. lucky the crowd was easy today. came in interval making things easier to cope with. but alot of difficult customers. bloody hell. i think we lost marilyn's application. must go down and check tmr. haha. abit hard considering no one is working tmr

been spending my time at my grandmother's place. she seems fine. not as pissed off at her condition as it seems to me. wish we could talk more. but i dont knw what to say and how to say it. someone teach me hokkien.

i got to stop being so hotheaded and throwing tantrums. fuck.

cut up angels.

2007-03-20T03:47:00.000+08:00

just came back from kenn's place after work. i remember i saw something really ironic yesterday. a monk in his robes walking back to the raffles place hotel(the one opposite the real raffles hotel) anyway. the irony of leading a life free of worldly thoughts and desire. i'll sure like a suite there.

then again liron is making more and more demands of us. thats the problem with the management. they always want to take and nv give. always trying to save the small money. in the first place who will enter a bar there feels like a furnace on a hot sunny day. i mean during the day its cooler to stand in the courtyard under the sun than it is to be in there. plus its less stuffy. oh.well. sometimes they just dont think. only desire. anyway. he was pretty funny today. was trying to learn hokkien (vulgarities) cause his gf can speak abit. and they taught him knn and ccb. and instantly he picks up his phone and calls his gf. "ccb, knn" first things he said to his gf. was hilarious.

THIS IS SPARTA

2007-03-15T23:29:00.000+08:00

all of you get yr lazy butts of the sofa and get to the nearest cinema and watch 300. AH-HOO. haha. bloody good movie. and i do mean bloody good.

my tips...

2007-03-08T10:02:00.000+08:00

argh. 68 dollars tips.. noooooo.... i m depressed. going bintan. havent packed yet. can someone help me take some stuff from nus open house. erm... law fac and ntu mass comm. haha. thanks.

updates.

2007-03-07T01:17:00.000+08:00

anyway. i managed not biting my nails but for some reason my left hand seems more bitten still. must have bit it subconsciously. haha. went to see a sinseh. my uncle actually. had acupuncture(not funny) and the vacuum thing(not funny either). i still have markings on my body. hurts like mad. forgot to take my pills. darn. better take before sleeping. hope i manage to slp tonight.

anyway. i stopped the comments function cause people keep flooding my mailbox by putting their adverts here. BALLS TO YOU. go screw someone else.

i hate ft.

2007-02-28T02:12:00.000+08:00

i forgot all about it after supper yesterday la. wanted to gripe about it. thats explains why i felt so empty after blogging(i lie) but its alright. i can do it today.

anyway. on my way for supper from the mrt. i was just minding my own business, doing my own walking. up comes this beefy fuckhole of a chinese man(i mean china chinese). thinking its beijing. he spits to his right. where to his fucking left is a drain and fucking grasspatch. of all the fucking place to spit. he spits right at me(haha. right. i m so funny. anyway) this is the part where i suspect he was trying to get me. then again i see his two friends pissing at seperate trees. bloody foreign talent. fucking wake up and look around. this is not fucking china. i hate inconsiderate people. bastards. then again. skeptics may say i m being paranoid. maybe he wasnt aiming me. he was just trying to spit at the canal. which was about 4 metres away. and then theres the part where i was in between him and the canal. bloody idiot. i suspect he heard me curse. so i got away fast. haha. pussy shit.

bintan!

2007-02-27T02:04:00.000+08:00

ghostrider is a lousy show. i think it'll be pretty cool as a comic though. haha. but nicholas cage has a fucking good body for someone his age. time to train up. you slob.

i m trying not to bite my nails. i should just die. cant even do that after so many years of trying. bah. i hate myself.

truffles.

2007-02-25T02:51:00.000+08:00

you are a fucking buffoon. why are the bloody waitresses so fucking efficient. and that was the most fucking expensive supper yet. haha. all of you probably dont knw what in the blue hell i m talking about. but fuck. i left something fucking valuable in the restaurant and while i was paying, they cleared it away. argh... bloody hk cafe. i want to die. stupid mushrooms.

well. they sure took their time to get grow and slaughter the cow for my beef hor fun. i knw. they must have been growing the wheat for the flour to make the noodles. it must be. thats the only reason i can think of why my food tasted so good. good as in the chef accidentally spilled the bottle of salt into my food. oh well. thats what you get for complaining so much.

i knw i m whiny. just pissed at myself for always forgetting my stuff. stupid. just stupid you knw. maybe i m too sorry for myself. like nick says. always blaming it on something else. defects ar.. phobias. and other people. thanks for listening. (or reading actually. you must be bored.)

i m back

2007-02-21T23:56:00.000+08:00

haha. finally i succumb and decided to just sign up for a bloody google acct. so much bloody trouble.

---------------------------------

anyway. updates. i have decided to exercise everyday. swim or smth. started today. and i currently have 3 liquors in my bar. haha. tequila cointreiu and lychee liquer. need some vodka to make lycheetini. going to get midori from japan i hope. what shall i get next.

shall i get new shoes for work and more casual. my high cut shoes abit hard to wear at times..

feng yun..

--------------------------------

crap theres nth to watch on teevee. i better start gymming.

what the heck. this is so messy. damn.

headlines.

2007-01-18T00:09:00.000+08:00

RJC girl drinks in pe tshirt. i think she's the first. wear the RAFFLES t-shirt go drink. tsk tsk. haha. blur queen. she sure blame it on me.

-------------------------

i want to watch one last dance. anyone?

interesting observation.

2007-01-07T19:29:00.000+08:00

i just got back from langkawi. that was truly an adventure. anyway. now theres some stupid show on teevee. i noticed something interesting during the adverts which is more interesting. the irony. haha. so you all remember the tiger beer advertisemnet where 'ten holds the secret' the dumber part of it is we pride ourselves in creating a home brew tiger beer. but noticed how the ten who hold the secrets are all angmh. haha.

holy shit the show just got dumber.

my first drink

2006-12-24T14:44:00.000+08:00

haha. i made my first drink today. haha. shaun's been very kind to me. lending me stuff and giving me chances to practice. haha. vodka cranberry. haha. nothing pro. but its a start. muahahahaha. christmas party after work today. whee..

beautiful ones

2006-12-22T03:42:00.000+08:00

life is so unpredictable. life comes and goes. emo time. pretty shocking. who would have known that talk we had that day would be our last. and how wrong i was to think that i could say hi to him another time since we probably meet again sometime. i guess we probably will meet again some time.

-----------------------------

went out to celebrate trina's bday to realise we were mass celebrating for lyndsey and audrey too. haha. what happened to my bday. i got tissue paper i havent finished using. thats the funny thing about tissue. you nv need it when you bring it. its only that one particular day you forgot to bring tissue, yr body begin to secrete all sorts of crap. or am i the only that who gets that.

------------------------------

so many christmas parties to goes. and i actually enjoy working for a change. working at bobby's now. its a bar cum restaurant or restaurant cum bar. which ever you prefer. i really learn hell alot there. alot about life and people. anyway. douglas oliverio or what his name is works next door. i said hi today. not knwing who the hell he was. no wonder he looked familar. haha. my shifu has been working with him or for him for long long time. anyway. so he is the one creating the ruckus next door every night. anyway. my job is a night job. thats why i hardly go online or update this. nothing happens anyway.

today a quarrel broke out between the staff. its these little things we never fucking pay attention to. i have nv noticed the two of them had never talked to each other. i always under the impression that everyone was nice and all. but it nv occur to me that was only with me. the incident really set me thinking and showed me alot. its not some stupid drunk bar fight. it is one of those things i can almost be sure every one of us will experience in our working life. except you bloody unemployed corks. haha. just joking. who doesnt want a job that pays well. i might get a day job at sia and work lesser at bobby's. its more for the learning there..

anyway. i am learning bartending now. if you heard anything. let me tell you from what i have seen. it aint a glamourous job. like my shifu says. life as a bartender's a bitch. its true. anyway. i cant mix drinks yet. still learning up on the liquors and pouring water for practice. haha. not too glam. it takes time to learn a skill.

in case you were wondering.

2006-10-21T02:08:00.000+08:00

in case you were wondering. the title for my blog didnt mysteriously create itself. i took it from this great song. it actually makes sense for alot of loud sounds and shouting put together.

Do we have the time to lay the line between true life, and you in mine.
I want to reel it back before the day when simplicity was washed away.

Like modern morbid prophecies fulfilled.
Like biting on these bitter tasting pills.
And we're just heroes, And we're just heroes.
For the day.

There's a silent urge to leave this cloud when all I want is to hear the sound,
Of your voice devoid of the constant noise, the only sound to fill this void.

And do you want this. And do you still need this.

Like modern morbid prophecies fulfilled.
Like biting on these bitter tasting pills.
And we're just heroes, And we're just heroes.

They all won't love me, she won't let me forget.

Like modern morbid prophecies fulfilled.
Like biting on these bitter tasting pills.
And we're just heroes, And we're just heroes.

Don't make me choose, I'll choose you and this will all be over.

-Dead Poetic

-------------------------

in case you were wondering. this song posting thing isnt going to be a habit dont worry. but neither am i going to write much. a level coming ar.. must study. no time to blog.. enjoy yr stay. i m lazy to update my links. i checked out bun's blog. quite ideological sia. all the thoughts and stuff. i nv manage to remember anything i think about. unless i write it down. but then again i end up wondering what the hell i meant.

-----------------------------

i was thinking about joyce. i realise i nv really treated her very fairly when we were together. made her alot of promises i didnt keep. played dota as she tried to talk to me. sometimes just completely neglecting her. i feel alot but i cant remember them. i need a notebook to record down my life. a big one. so many thoughts to process.

i guess some of you may think i m lamenting about breaking up and want to get back with her. i dont knw why i am saying this. its not get back with her. that i sure. but at the end of the day. i hope people out there can learn to appreciate the people around you for who they are, rather than waiting til its too late. i guess you could say i am trying to ease my guilt and regrets by expressing them. kind of a cathartic effect the blog has. i tend to use it alot to gripe about life. (see post about haze). i nv thought of saying all this out. especially the dota part 'ruining our relationship. its quite sad cause i was finding excuses out of it and nv really appreciated her for working so hard to hold everything together.

so just appreciate the people around you. time is short. i want to watch death note.

yes. i can finally add "emo kid" to my resume.

back to physics.

Lying Is The Most Fun A Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes OffLying Is The Most Fun A Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off

2006-10-15T00:42:00.000+08:00

Panic! at the disco.

Is it still me that makes you sweat?
Am I who you think about in bed?
When the lights are dim and your hands are shaking as you're sliding off your dress?
Then think of what you did
And how I hope to God he was worth it.
When the lights are dim and your heart is racing as your fingers touch your skin.
I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck
Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me
Girl I was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of
Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat?
No, no, no, you know it will always just be me

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

So I guess we're back to us, oh cameraman, swing the focus
In case I lost my train of thought, where was it that we last left off?
(Let's pick up, pick up)

Oh now I do recall, we were just getting to the part
Where the shock sets in, and the stomach acid finds a new way to make you get sick.
I hope you didn't expect that you'd get all of the attention.
Now let's not get selfish
Did you really think I’d let you kill this chorus?

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

Dance to this beat
Dance to this beat
Dance to this beat

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster

I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck
Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me
Girl I was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of
Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat?
No, no, no, you know it will always just be me

------------------------------------------

me and andrew were thinking of ways to fix the haze problem once and for all.. here are some of the brilliant ideas we came up with. if its lousy, andrew did it. haha.

1)build a big fan. so that we can blow all the haze back at them.
2)build a huge cage or cages above singapore and lock the indons in it. make them breath in all the haze.
3)(my dad) build a huge machine to suck up all the haze and send it back to them.
4)bear with the haze and help them burn their forest. this way. they will have nothing to burn next year. plant some trees convieniently leading the fire to their govt building..
5)we havent thought of this one yet.

clavicle

2006-09-25T21:38:00.000+08:00

its been a hell of a prelims. with late nights of running from the guard and defying my religion.. i m definitely going to hell for missing all that slp.. i got to make it all up after the a's. been playing alot of comp recently after the exams. better stop before i get too hooked. looks like its back to school for me.

i dont knw who won the singapore idol. but honestly. they should name the show after the audience instead of the contestants. doesnt that make all of you people watching the show and voting furiously for yr beloved hadi or joathan proud of yrself. they really should name it after the audience. imagine... singapore idiots.. i m so excited. i m not hyped up about the new idol but well. it would be refreshing to see someone else hold the big gulp cup at 7-11. talk about product placement. haha. i love advertising. makes demand less elastic.

see how amazing a certain mobile company manages to legally scam our very own singapore idiots. 60cents a sms. there should be laws to protect these idiots. they are singapore idiots. actually there are laws. protecting them. just that they are meant to protect the other singapore idiot, the scamming ones. legal scamming. take that, nigeria conmen. we are LEGAL. take that. haha.

i love to rant.

cats in the cradle

2006-08-27T13:28:00.000+08:00

geepee tomorrow. which brings me to the question of why i m online doing this. i figured i could argue that this is sort of training my geepee skills. but then again. i doubt i can score very well. just remember to be critical and think of logical arguments. damn i spelled it as arguements again.

----------------------------

nothing beats an ice cold bath to clear yr mind. there's been alot on my mind. alot of things have been said and done within this short week. i ask myself things that i've ask myself so many times yet i never had a clear ans. or more accurately. i never had an answer at all. but i figured pretending to half the ans is better than having none at all. you may score method marks or smth in the exams. dont you love our education system. in this way. we seperate those who knw their stuff and those who dont. instead of having people scoring a's and f's we have all these amazing grades in between. all thanks to method marks. be grateful you arrogant know it alls. i digress.

everyday i wake up to a world where i repeat this little cycle i have and go back to sleep at the end of the day, glad that thankfully we all kept to our cycle, keeping the world rotating without a hitch. and in this cycle. i find myself going to a place where people i know do smile or say hi to me. even if they dont mean it or they dont like me, they do it all the same. why do people put on such a facade and say things they dont mean or with hidden blades. and even more amazing. how is it that going to such facility of hypocrisy can actually have meaning and on days that this cycle is broken we actually miss it.

if you recall the matrix. if you recall the bastard cypher. who betrayed Morpheus. he said that between the Matrix and the real world. he would choose the Matrix. if this is the real world and i would choose the Matrix dream world too.

psychosis.

2006-08-14T21:53:00.000+08:00

i was checking up on the symptoms of paranoia. and i just found the link to this mental disorder. they claimed emily rose had epilepsy and psychosis. got me interested to knw what the symptoms are like. tell me. is it a gd thing if you find the symptoms to a known medical condition oddly familar. like you have seen them in someone but you cant put yr finger to it. and when it all works out. you realise that person is you. lets hope i dont develop to psychosis. just wondering.

well i do knw what i have now. stomachache. bah.

-----------------------------------

hello charis. hope you are doing fine in aussie. its been long since i've talk to you. haha. nice of you to drop by.

Do you still remember back when days were longer, dreams were bigger then.

2006-08-08T23:01:00.000+08:00

dont we all wish we had longer hours to mug. to sleep. and to play. bah. what a sad life we lead. where everyone's dream is shaped towards our 4a's. and next up. degree masters phd.

our education system is truly one that molds lives. and we are the factory made porcelein cups and the occasional bowls, ready for exports.

i love this export orientated nation. dont you.

mugging fever.

2006-07-21T00:29:00.000+08:00

i got to catch that soon if i dont want to fail all my subjects and really end up sweeping the roads.

i was watching teevee. there was this woman who bosses everyone ard and did everything she could to sell her insurance. (her name is queenie just for the record). throughout the whole show. she seems like the demonic power hungry whore. but the most surprising thing was shown during her downfall.

the scene was in the hospital. and she was asking the doctor if the treatment was effective. being the whore she is. i jumped to the conclusion that it was AIDS. it turns out that she has a brother with blood cancer. i cant spell the word.. leuki-smth. anyway. it was pretty upsetting.

perhaps. just like life. we try too hard to guess the storyline of other people. jumping to conclusions. we are superficial people. i believe that no one can deny this. we judge people by their dressing and looks. hardly looking at the soul. idealistic hypocrites will weave beautiful pictures to beautiful women about how they seek someone with a gd personality.

the truth is. personality is to be discovered. and no one would give a damn to go discover the beautiful personality of the ugliest person.(despite popular claim by most people. guys and girls alike) no one would even notice her. maybe they would if she or he was the ugliest. we are so superficial and we cant dodge it.

i want to sleep.

which is better?

2006-07-05T22:46:00.000+08:00

lies that draw a smile or the truth that draws a tear?

some question posted by some girl on yahoo. has some interesting ans. like silence is golden. i wonder what is wrong with these people's heads. haha. i m so evil.

-------------------------------

anyway. i m suppose to be filling up my online testimonial for sgc. but i havent got started. i swear my 8-characters are clashes with adobe acrobat reader. it hangs every single time i open a website with it. its cursed...

-------------------------------

sch has been pretty awkward so far. but life goes on. realised the softball team is gg to die next yea. with coach albert gone. they are lost. drop by to play during their training today. i guess yongkiat and park are doing their best to coach the j1's even though they have nv been coachs. i shall stop here before i say smth offensive. worse still. not only offend him but his fans too. haha.

---------------------------------

i m here by order of the queen. forgoing updating my testimonial and even games like solitaire and dota. haha. so upset i cant play call of duty two. maybe i'll try call of duty one and see if it works.

i m high.

2006-06-16T02:14:00.000+08:00

this may scare you people. but i m either high on coffee or i m high on maths. haha. actually i think its the music. maybe a combination of them all. WHEE.... intergration is fun.

i m starting to suspect i took drugs but am too high to recall.

operation mugging.

2006-06-15T23:25:00.000+08:00

outline for this post. i shall start of griping about how much i have not studied even though i have. it seems to be a formality in jc to brag about how much you have not studied but nv how much you have covered. i m a traditions kind of guy so lets stick to that. even though it is much easier listing down what i have covered. which is quite abit by my standards. but not enough for a pass. especially when the people you hang ard talk about passes as more than a B.

i can live with myself for studying that little. i need to have more discipline in the things i do.. play too much smallball and pokemon(hey. i m trying to relive my childhood here. quit laughing). and i slp too much and study too little. spend my time very ineffectively. maybe i should study with the mailman. haha. the mailman mugs too... bet you didnt knw that. haha.

then i shall carry on to talk about how boring life has been for me(another formality) and complain how life is unfair. but nv to my advantage.

now that we're done with that...

----------------------------

i think i have neglected alot of my friends for my relationship. some chinese proverb describes such behaviour but i will leave it out to spare a portion of my beloved friends from hyperventilating(allergic to chinese. chinese proverbs? way too much to handle). anyway. i've nv found myself neglecting all my friends for just one person. i mean i have neglected people b4. but not that many. and when guilt pricks me in the ass(not a very nice thing). i guess the least i can do is....

1) salvage some of the dying/dead friendships. havent been keeping track.
2) remedy those that are reaching the cliff.
3) try to make more friends before i get out of vj.

i think i should stick to the first two before i get too ambitious. ambitious. i like that word. i just nv finish it.. NATO. i dont knw. the strange thing is that i knw these friendships were going downhill but i nv really made an effort to salvage them. i just let them slip by me. let their friendship fade away. let their aid to me in dire times go forgetten. sure. i comfort myself to slp with lies that i m too shy to bring such issues up or i dont knw how to tackle the issue. but truth be told. i knw as well as hell(that rhymed. i m gd.) i can salvage them if i really wanted to.

i guess at the end of the day. we only appreciate those ard us in times of need. share the woe. hoard the wealth. i can see myself heading back to these shores when i m broken and stranded in the open. these shores that i nv appreciated or care about in gd times. its only when you are in need will you think of them. and the strangest thing yet. they are always there for you, no matter how you neglected them. no matter when. no matter how. they are there for you. for that i thank all of you great friends who have been shores to me throughout my life.

must we always wait til times of need before we appreciated those ard ours. but appreciation is merely a word then. just as it has always been. when times are fine again. we return to this sick cycle. we do this to them and they do this to others. i guess it really is an evil carousel.

there are always those who are there for us when we are down and broken but seldom are they there to share our joys and happiness. not cause they dont want to. but we dont include them. we merely cast them out of sight, out of mind. the mind choose what it chooses to believe. but still they stick it out with us the next time we are broken. that is really admirable. this guilt has bothered me for countless nights but constantly i find myself casting them out of mind. typical human nature. avoid whatever you do not wish to face. i m sorry orange, monster and minru.

the truth is. i m too weak to do any thing... yet another excuse.

Under Pressure.

2006-06-04T01:43:00.000+08:00

Pressure pushing down on me
Pressing down on you no man ask for
Under pressure - that burns a building down
Splits a family in two
Puts people on streets
It's the terror of knowing
What this world is about
Watching some good friends
Screaming let me out
Pray tomorrow - gets me higher
Pressure on people - people on streets
Turned away from it all like a blind man
Sat on a fence but it don't work
Keep coming up with love but it's so slashed and torn
Why - why - why
Love
Insanity laughs under pressure we're cracking
Can't we give ourselves one more chance
Why can't we give love that one more chance
Why can't we give love
Cause love's such an old fashioned word
and love dares you to care for
The people on the edge of the night
And love dares you to change our way of
Caring about ourselves
This is our last dance
This is ourselves
Under pressure

-Freddy Mercury and David Bowie

i fell behind.

2006-06-04T01:19:00.000+08:00

the most amazing thing about humans isnt about all the inventions we've made that. or how we can kill each other and everything else with the inventions. what never fails to amaze me is how we can always come up with wide range of excuses for everything that goes wrong. we could catalogue all our excuses into dumb/dumbest/i-cant-believe-you-tried-that. but more simply. the purpose or a summary of all these excuses can be simplified to 'it wasnt me, its his/her fault.'

if done well enough. a great mind could turn a excuse into the noblest act. seemingly saintly to the none-the-wiser world. hmm. imagine a senario. a guy gives up a girl. for 'her happiness', he would rather 'suffer' without her and let her be happy. but think of it in another light. maybe the guy was just lazy or tired of trying. he wants out. but how not to seem the jerk. hmm.. i wonder. remember dan brown's 'so dark the con of man'. haha. maybe the guy doesnt love her enough to try harder. or maybe he just dont deserve her. its amazing what a well placed excuse can be manipulated into.

who wouldnt want the best of both worlds. and sometimes the lies we tell ourselves. to let us slp at night, are so dark and deceitful. they can easily deceive the slightly less cynical of man. if a guy falls so in love with a girl, but the girl. not wanting to hurt him, manages to keep his attention showered on her. yet behind the scenes. she makes out with two guys she knws he doesnt like. drunk maybe. or maybe just another excuse. but what is cost if one fool is willing. but it is two will pay the price.

we only treasure what we've lost.

we are, we are all innocent - our lady peace.

we lust for the things we cant seem to grasp.

to the moon.

2006-05-20T23:00:00.000+08:00

there is no feeling in a match worse than to be winning and finally losing. my heart goes out to the bball teams. and all the other teams who may have suffer this fate. but life goes on.

i guess the bball finals was pretty biased with that stupid ref whom i m convinced is either a very ugly woman or a freaking tranny. and the other ref is just bloody WEAK. he should die too. but thats just how the way the world works. the world is unfair. that part i can understand. the part i dont comprehend is why cant it be unfair to our advantage.

------------------------------

electrochem has proven to be more boring than expected. thankfully. it seems alot easier minus the standard potential parts. alot like secondary sch. i still owe alot of gp hw.. die.

-------------------------------

anyway. hello andrea. nice of you to drop by. yea. we havent talked in ages. gd luck for yr tsd exam. haha. maybe we'll study together sometime, just like old times. haha.

to the god damn best softball team.

2006-05-18T23:18:00.000+08:00

its been a great season. great team. great people. speak for itself.

-----------------------------

Never let the fear of striking out keep you from swinging. - Babe Ruth

The greatest feeling in the world is to win a major league game. The second-greatest feeling is to lose a major league game. ~Chuck Tanner, quoted in The Sporting News, 15 July 1985

"How can a you hit and think at the same time? - Yogi Berra

I swing big, with everything I've got. I hit big or I miss big. I like to live as big as I can." - Babe Ruth

There have been only two geniuses in the world. Willie Mays and Willie Shakespeare. ~Tallulah Bankhead

Hitting is timing. Pitching is upsetting timing. ~Warren Spahn

A baseball game is simply a nervous breakdown divided into nine innings. ~Earl Wilson

Baseball was made for kids, and grown-ups only screw it up. ~Bob Lemon

I don't want to play golf. When I hit a ball, I want someone else to go chase it. ~Rogers Hornsby

I'm convinced that every boy, in his heart, would rather steal second base than an automobile. ~Tom Clark

During my 18 years I came to bat almost 10,000 times. I struck out about 1,700 times and walked maybe 1,800 times. You figure a ballplayer will average about 500 at bats a season. That means I played seven years without ever hitting the ball. ~Mickey Mantle, 1970

It ain't like football. You can't make up no trick plays. ~Yogi Berra

A baseball park is the one place where a man's wife doesn't mind his getting excited over somebody else's curves. ~Brendan Francis

I don't know why people like the home run so much. A home run is over as soon as it starts.... The triple is the most exciting play of the game. A triple is like meeting a woman who excites you, spending the evening talking and getting more excited, then taking her home. It drags on and on. You're never sure how it's going to turn out. ~George Foster, 1978

Don't forget to swing hard, in case you hit the ball. ~Woodie Held

Well, boys, it's a round ball and a round bat and you got to hit the ball square. ~Joe Schultz, 1969

Spread the diaper in the position of the diamond with you at bat. Then fold second base down to home and set the baby on the pitcher's mound. Put first base and third together, bring up home plate and pin the three together. Of course, in case of rain, you gotta call the game and start all over again. ~Jimmy Piersal, on how to diaper a baby, 1968

Baseball is the only game left for people. To play basketball, you have to be 7 feet 6 inches. To play football, you have to be the same width. ~Bill Veeck, 1975

"Baseball is ninety percent mental. The other half is physical." - Yogi Berra

"I always thought that record would stand until it was broken."

extra extra. read all about it.

2006-05-16T22:40:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ORANGE!

-------------------------------------

you better be glad that thats the first thing i have posted in a long while. haha. i knw my fans have been waiting eagerly for me to return. yes. i m back. haha.

anyway. elections are finally over. quite a while already but nvm. media freedom is back to its original neck gripping tightness again. arent we all glad. anyway. i should shut my mouth and type about my everyday life. haha.

hc is really losing alot of semis this yr. haha. so many games playing at the same time. tmr it will all be over. no pressure. lose nvm. win we are champs. haha. hope i hit like today. whee...

-------------------------------------

due to the evil politician. i m forced to make a public apology to the tn party. but i m not supp to say i m forced so you people didnt read that..

sorry for all our unbased accusations at the tn party causing you much trouble.. i will order mai hiam properly next time.

take that..

p.s. no links to real politics. inside joke.

ripped from some guy's blog.

2006-04-29T17:04:00.000+08:00

THE WIT AND THE WISDOM OF HOMER J. SIMPSON

"Now son, you don't want to drink beer. That's for Daddys, and
kids with fake IDs."

"Marge, it takes two to lie. One to lie and one to listen."

"Maybe, just once, someone will call me 'sir' without adding,
'you're making a scene.'"

"Marge, don't discourage the boy! Weaseling out of things is
important to learn. It's what separates us from the animals!
Except the weasel."

"If you really want something in life you have to work for it.
Now quiet, they're about to announce the lottery numbers."

"Don't let Krusty's death get you down, boy. People die all
the time. Just like that. Why, you could wake up dead tomorrow.
Well, good night."

"Son, when you participate in sporting events, it's not whether
you win or lose: it's how drunk you get."

"Lisa, if you don't like your job you don't strike. You just go
in every day and do it really half-assed. That's the American
way."

"Step aside everyone! Sensitive love letters are my specialty.
'Dear Baby, Welcome to Dumpsville. Population: you.'"

"To alcohol! The cause of - and solution to - all of life's
problems!"

"I want to share something with you - the three sentences that
will get you through life. Number one, 'cover for me.' Number
two,'oh, good idea, boss.' Number three, 'it was like that when
I got here.'"

---------------------------------

i think lyndsey found it. http://celticbiohazard.blogspot.com.

to the best cartoon character ever lived. and to duff beers.

kudos to denys.

2006-04-29T16:39:00.000+08:00

now i dont have to read my role of money notes.

to my new found horror. i realised how long it has been since i have been online to talk to all my friends. yes as shocking as it is. i do have friends. and i havent been updating this stupid blog which, if you are reading. probably means you have been checking back here foolisly for me to update. haha. nonetheless you are one hard core fans. i thought they stopped producing those long ago.

--------------------------------

went for my medical check up yesterday. my eyesight didnt affect that much after all. i guess when everyone has lousy eyesight. it places us all on a similar level. its no longer about do you have perfect eyesight. now. its about how bad is yrs. as for those of you little monsters who read books lying down, watch teevee excessive and in the dark. and still have yr perfect eyesight. i guess they are eager to pack you off to ndu or the airforce. argh... i hope you suffer. bah.

on the lighter side of things. i think i failed my iq test. well that disqualifies me from... almost nth. considering you dont really need iq to follow instructions. not that much anyway.

the most striking thing that.. well. struck me there was those poster you see on buses and mrts? about calling 999 if you see a suspicious package? well i left my shoebag on the counter when i signed in to enter the cmpb. and i forgot to take it when i left. so i went back halfway during my checkup to grab it. my suspicous looking bag was just lying on the counter infront of the 3 guards and in sight of the guard with the metal detector. i took it and apologized to the guard. the guard simply looked at me as though i just pulled out the bag like a rabbit out of a hat. how ironic is that?

everything.

2006-04-09T22:45:00.000+08:00

Everyone rides.... in style.

Every six seconds you think of sex.

There are 2 sides to every story.

Every action has an equal and opposite reaction.

Everytime.Everywhere.Everyone.Everything.

Ever wonder why.

Every second counts.

Every story has an end.

Everything you want is not everything you need.

----------------------------

was watching the vertical horizon video. these phrase kept appearing. and somehow. got stuck in my head. so being as bored as i m, cooped up in my room. unable to join john on his sacred mission.. of saving the starving mammals all around the world. i decided to copy down the lines to see if i could make any sense. it made more sense in the video. crap. i should stop stalling and get back to electrochem.

-----------------------------

time to move on. lets hope this works. for some sick reason. i have a bad feeling about it already.

my sundown.

2006-04-02T21:43:00.000+08:00

music fest turned out better than expected. quite a few controversial decisions made by the judges but i really couldnt care. the tennis girls behind us were screaming so loudly(and close.. my poor ear), i swear it did funny things to my brain. but nicholas ong's group? what the fuck? oh well. pretty gd coordination between the hockey girls and us. luckily we rehearse our lines frequently.

------------------------------

dark and difficult times lies ahead.

at least there's desmond to talk to. minus the fact that i have to shout to him in order for him to hear me. we are outfield. nvm.

-------------------------------

game with cat high was pretty bad as a whole. we have got to start hitting those balls. pretty disappointing. not sure what is our problem. but we cant let 8mths of hardwork go to waste.

btw people. i dont have my phone with me. sorry if you called or msged me. i feel yr love. but still you got to wait. its officially dead. must be receiving alot of msges. muahahaha. i feel popular. ... or it could my batt is screwing up as usual... i prefer the former.

--------------------------------

to my dear classmates and friends. do remind me to visit my favourite lib more frequently now. unless, you wish to visit me next year when you get yr result slips. i knw what you are schemin.

i wish for once, someone would call me 'sir' without adding 'you are making a scene'.

2006-03-26T21:10:00.000+08:00

after a whole week of src tournament. we wounded up making the biggest screw up of our life losing to nj. at least its a wake up call for us. playing jj on wed. all i've got is tmr to train up my batting and try to get off the bench. or i might end up like the movie title. the benchwarmers.

coach albert is really one of the best coaches around. recept. just train hard. aim for top four. anything else is a bonus.

anything else is a bonus. indeed. maybe all this while, all my life and maybe some of yrs. we have been trying too hard to achieve those impossible goals we have in life. set by ourselves, by our parents or by society. but if you take a step back and see things. we might awaken to all the unnecessary pressure we give ourselves.

enough bullshit. back to writing that econs essay. another step to my econ's A. i hope.

---------------------------------

there is a chink in the armour like gabriel says. there are always weakness in everything, no matter how strong they are. its like how diamonds can cut glass but laser which cuts diamonds, cant cut glass. "to knw the wonderful science behind all this. google it. to just knw the simple logic i knw. ask me."

the only flaw to that theory is that some have more strengths. some have even more strengths.. and some dont have any to begin with(not true if you think about it.)

life is waiting for you.

2006-03-13T22:57:00.000+08:00

life is a gamble with Death Himself. every choice, step, moment you make and have is a gamble. the price if you lose? Death claims you for Himself. if you win, you keep yr stakes to bet the next round. to gamble. to literally, die another day.

the problem with this game is its so addictive. there is no way to quit. everyone is an addict. (except the dead ones - ex-addicts) you just keep betting and like all gambles. the house alway wins.

save tonight.

2006-03-11T20:39:00.000+08:00

a photo can capture the way we were. but it cant capture the way we are.

------------------------------

i m lazy to think. got a match against ah tmr.. didnt knw they have a team. what on earth is a glass pitcher? i wish people stop giving themselves imaginary titles. they are ruining the franchise.

take it away.

2006-03-03T22:07:00.000+08:00

The drops of rain they fall all over
This awkward silence makes me crazy
The glow inside burns light upon her
I'll try to kiss you if you let me
(this can't be the end)

Tidal waves they rip right through me
Tears from eyes worn cold and sad
Pick me up now, I need you so bad

Down

Your vows of silence fall all over
The look in your eyes makes me crazy
I feel the darkness break upon her
I'll take you over if you let me
(You did this)

-Blink 182

------------------------------------------------

ever felt when no matter how cold the wind blows at you. you still felt colder inside.

ever tried slowing down yr pace on the walk home and just think about things as the world pass you at the normal pace? or just stared blankly at the sea and empty yr mind. if you dont have time for that. i pity you.

is it possible to like somebody whom you cant even hold a conversion with?

i should stop acting like a lovesick puppy or a who's that guy from twelfth night, the lovesick fellow who said, if music be the food of love.. blah blah blah...

---------------------------------------------

sherry. give me yr msn. then i can give you a list of all the things you can get me.. haha. kidding about the presents really. miss you girl. haha. havent talk to you in so long.

perfection

2006-02-28T23:14:00.000+08:00

think about this. take a person's face for example. if a person has had perfect complexion and has a one or two puny scar marks on her nose or smth. people around would tend to concentrate on that one or two blemishes and no longer how nice the rest of her complexion is.

compare this to someone like me for example. my skin is bad. yet that one pimple wouldnt make a difference to the way people look at me. they still see my face as it is.

take this analogy and apply it to our lives. a high profile professor/professional with a clean record all his life, makes one mistake. the spotlight is all on him. people are wondering how could a person so perfect make such a mistake. it doesnt matter if this man is the only person who has been able to cure AIDS. all they will focus on is that one mistake he made.

similarly. a ordinary man who grew up in the coffeeshops and video arcades kills someone in a fight. so?

maybe perfection isnt so perfect afterall. if given the choice, who will you be?

so does perfection amplify one's flaws?

well. i knw i'll have alot of flaws in my paper if i dont get back to studying..

The Taste of Ink.

2006-02-26T21:04:00.000+08:00

But when I see you
It's like I'm staring down the sun
And I'm blinded
There's nothing left to do
and still I see you

when you see i m left with pasting song lyrics. its pretty obvious i dont have anything clever to say. its about time you stop reading and study for yr common tests.

walk away.

2006-02-26T00:07:00.000+08:00

tagline of wolf creek. The thrill is in the hunt.

------------------------------------

you got to face the harsh reality when there is no where left to run.

stay together for the kids.

2006-02-24T23:22:00.000+08:00

Its hard to wake up, when the shades have been pulled shut
This house is haunted, its so pathetic, it makes no sense at all
Im ripe with things to say, the words rot and fall away
What stupid poem could fix this home, I'd read it every day

So here's your holiday,
hope you enjoy it this time, you gave it all away
It was mine, so when your dead and gone,
will you remember this night, twenty years now lost,
it's not right.

Their anger hurts my ear, been burning strong for seven years
Rather then fix the problem, they never solve them, it makes no sense at all
I see them everyday, we get along so why can't they?
If this is what he wants, and its what she wants,then why's there so much pain?

-blink 182.

to the greatest punk band in the world. a pity they had to split. i love this song.
-----------------------------------

why is it that most people crave for the attention of that one special person. and when they finally give up in all their antics to achieve their goals. they receive all the attention of the person.

do we try too hard? or do we just try hard in the wrong way. when all we should have done is nothing. nothing at all.

similarly. we fight hard and fierce for some of the things we want. and when we finally get it, we seem to lose interest and take it for granted. eventually. it slips right out our hands. and we turn back and wonder. what did i do wrong. can things be the way it was. i should have tried harder.

yet time doesnt wait for you to look back in time wondering where you went wrong. all you do is miss the opportunities that passes you by.

some people dont have that luck. and those who do are so ungrateful about being alive. if you are reading this. you ought to be more grateful that you are alive.

orexis

2006-02-22T22:17:00.000+08:00

classical latin for desire - (Psychology) the affective and conative character of mental activity as contrasted with its cognitive aspect; the appetitive aspect of an act.
Retrieved from "http://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/orexis"

a simple word that can evoke so many complicated emotions.

---------------------------

if a silly simple gesture can make the people around you happy, do it. i will be nicer to my siblings from now on.

oops. just broke the arm of my sis's polly pocket doll.

-----------------------------

one thing leads to another. one thing leads to another.

back to drawing board.

2006-02-22T00:12:00.000+08:00

its not my passwords i cant remember. its the usernames that i have a problem with.

-----------------------------------

i should just take things easy and let things take its course. i hate who i'm pretending to be.

i passed my 3star. now to clear my ct and my spa. crap.

change yr mind

2006-02-19T22:03:00.000+08:00

Hey hey
Have you ever danced in the rain
Or thanked the sun
Just for shining- just for shining

what's story behind that devious smile.

2006-02-18T23:28:00.000+08:00

markmorgan9302435883. sorry. i cant seem to access your blog for some reason. maybe the link is spoiled or smth? pls check. thanks.

------------------------------

i knw you people miss me. admit it. muahahaha. i miss you too.

life's pretty gd these few days. trainings been gd. think our team is finally seeing some hope. CHILLI-RED ah(inside joke). coach's been happy. laughing alot with us. feels gd to train for once. and andre3000. that fellow. damn power la. he's like a freaking talent. i think he is playing much better than alot of us. batting especially. keep it up dude.

pretty fun. things are gg pretty good. i think. i hope. working out fine. or better than i predicted it to be initially. haha.

jts was pretty funny. our faces of year and me were late. dont really knw what happened before that. but the junior class seem alittle worried about the bill. haha. i feel pretty evil making them pay. but i m short of cash and i was hungry. someone has to die.

------------------------------------

miw website is bothering me. they just send another letter for me to register for ns which i already did 14days ago. and now the website doesnt work.

------------------------------------

ever had dinner with yr cousins and all of you just sat at the table waiting for the next dish to be served. in silence, except for the disturbing cat who makes the person nearby screech.

i have.

2006-02-10T23:19:00.000+08:00

argh. my phone is dead. i think the batt just died on me. i cant charge it anymore. bah. its one year old.

technology in my family normally last pretty long. like this comp for example. its been around for 12 years. thats older than some of you p6 kiddos. anyway. my parents decided to keep the notebook after all. wasnt a too bright thing to do by loaning it to my aunt for 3 years. which is ridiculous.

so now for the stat report of the new com.

a 900% increase in processor speed.
a 1000% increase in memory. still not enough.
plus an extra cool wide screen. even ivan agrees.

but it still lags. not enough ram. damn.

--------------------------------

i got the air conditioned nation. whee. finally my sis got it for me. the one in vj lib is always on loan. coaching tmr. got to wake up early. bah.

just read that arctic monkeys are the fastest selling first album in brit hist.

fuel those missles.

2006-02-07T23:34:00.000+08:00

I'm a thousand miles away
but girl tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Time square cant shine as bright as you
I swear its true

Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice its my disguise
I'm by your side

Oh its what you do to me

i got to learn how to smooth talk like this song. haha. ming han aka plasma penguin introduced it to me. pretty smoothing sound with honeyed lyrics. this description sounds like him. yup. i think so too. haha. hey there delilah. by plain white t's.

----------------------------------------

audrey is in a violent mood. dangerous. haha. i just wrote my letter to my angel. again. after i found the annoying letter that i wrote but couldnt find.

go to mr brown's and watch the chris rock vid about 'how not to get yr ass kicked by police.'

mr brightside.

2006-02-05T23:35:00.000+08:00

the rain falling against the orange streetlight of a quiet little street where nothing. you can hear nothing but the rain and the monotonous tapping of the keyboard.

happiness is a fair weather friend. literally. gd night people.

EAM.

2006-02-03T23:04:00.000+08:00

-emergency action message-

for all of you who have been paying attention, there have been reportings of nuclear silos along the siglap link park connector, along the canal. these are true.

our satellite images have detected that the enemy have began fuelling their missles and we are to launch against them b4 they do.

=end of EAM=

only one thing. our silos are so small i think we can only use springs to launch them. i live in my own world. i got that idea from crimson tide. great movie. the black guy made a gd point. if the communist and american launch their nukes at each other. what the world have on our hands is not gg to be WWIII or a nuclear war. its gg to be a nuclear holocaust.

-----------------------------

there have been reports of kids reporting their dads for abusing their moms and others who have been watching their parent suffering abuse are encourage to do the same. just to clear the air. i think the whole idea of punishing abusive spouses is the only moral thing to do. and i completely support that. hang the fellow. wifes are for doting. not beating. oh but there maybe a different story but its hardly ever new. drunk, gambling dad beats hardworking mum who supports family.

what i m driving at is. if this whole issue works out. if kids do begin to report their parents now that they are being encourage to do so. isnt it disturbing if this happy power of encouragement was inappropriately used. we could have a repeat of the hitler youth or the khmer rouge incident. sorry. i dont really knw many examples of such cases.

but for those of you who dont knw what happened. the children in the hitler youth and khmer rouge regime were encouraged to step forth and report their parents for acts against the nation. they were even encouraged to kill these traitors to their country. traitors to the reich. children in the khmer rouge regime often went to the officials with the heads of their parents for acts against the nation. complaining about the hard work they did for the day.

pretty disturbing powers huh? i think so too.

that annoying woman.

2006-02-02T23:29:00.000+08:00

i suddenly remember what i wanted to gripe about. the ban mian woman who refuse to take my ten dollar polymer note. kenny was super fierce about it. she refused it like we were counterfeiting money and she was so smart to not get cheated. annoying china woman.

-------------------------------------

i was watching teevee. again. yes. thats not the point.

its seems that alot of taiwan/china/hongkong shows. i dont knw which. are using orphans, seperated from young and reunited after a whole load of bullshit that becomes the serial, as their theme for their story. pretty exploitative huh? just wondering.

brighter than sunshine.

2006-02-02T16:36:00.000+08:00

well well. finally i'm home before the sun has set. so this is what my house looks like in the light.

------------------------------------

i think the problem with me is that i dont register my thoughts or things i see in my heard. thats why i never have anything to write about. oh well. i have a sudden urge to play mahjong but i m stuck doing my econs essay and group 7 tutorial(keep quiet orange. just stay high on yr drugs.) haha.

let me think what was it i saw just now on the way home. anyway. have you seen one of those disturbing advertisements at the busstop. the identikit picture. have you seen it before? probably. damn. still cant remember. oh well.

------------------------------------

time to go collecting debts again. ought to get it done and over with. annoying fellow.

thats why.

2006-02-01T21:57:00.000+08:00

i was watching teevee. the guy was seperate from this girl from young by their parents. some affair thing. long story. many years later, they both mature to adults and the man thinks he found the girl whom is actually an imposter, assuming her best friend's identity for her happiness. so this guy is all head over heels for childhood lover whom is a fake.

it just struck me then, how is it that he can make himself for in love with someone whom he thinks is the person he loves. isnt he loving the identity of the person rather than the person herself. or is he just fulfiling a moral obligation, carrying on the loving of his childhood lover. he doesnt even know she is not the woman he loved when the real lover is her best friend. the story goes on.

however. as all serials ends up with some cliche ending. when the imposter is found out, what will happen then. he transfer his love to the real lover whom also blindly accepts it. doesnt this show that he didnt actually love the imposter and was merely in love with the identity of his lover and the lover becomes a physical representation of this identity?

its confusing. this is where i wish i hadnt start thinking. its so confusing you wish you havent started reading too.

anyway. since the girl is the illegitimate child of the guy's father from some affair. wouldnt that in turn result in their union as incest. hoho. dont you love happy endings

---------------------------------------

its awkward. its hopeless. bah.

---------------------------------------

anyone knw what the gamberras are? is it another name for daisies?

maybe tomorrow.

2006-01-31T21:34:00.000+08:00

i got this from call of duty 2.. sweet game. just dont try it on game consoles.. madness. maybe i'm just lousy at that.

"war doesnt determine who's right. only who is left." -some fellow(cant remember his name.)

-----------------------------

its been a long cny.. pretty draggy too. my family has very unique way of functioning. we work on a need-to-knw basis. i figure thats why i never knw what's happening until its over or its happening. nth new to wake up being yelled at for not being ready for a malaysia trip or some visit we are having.

the flaw with this system? need to knw often ends up being i dont knw. oh well. nth new. maybe its me. maybe i should pay more attention to what they are saying..

----------------------------

i can never understand them.

in life, you either win or you lose. in my case. i forfeit.

-----------------------------

cross country tmr. nothing can surpass the annoying fact that the whole sport is just plain.dead.running. maybe except the fact that we dont have school. whee. more time to finish my hw.. yes you heard me right. samuel is a changed man. i m actually doing my hw now. fear me. oh yes. not to forget the hot cross girls... whoo...

training tmr. right after cross. ultimate weight loss program. on the bright side. we MIGHT not have to do warm up running. on the down side. we already ran 4.8

i hate running. i like nike though. (random.)

game over.

2006-01-24T23:12:00.000+08:00

the cocoon wriggles and squirms in violent to the slightest of movement around, almost as though it had eyes to see and ears to hear. after a month of the most elaborate and complex evolution from that speck to the full fledged caterpillar and finally, the cocoon. this is the most mysterious and magnificent transformation period. the cocoon wriggles vivaciously, seemingly out of control, awaiting the reveal its contents to the warm of the sunlight.

impatiently yet carefully prodding it to quicken the process, the cocoon begins to wriggle with excitement and fear of what the world holds for it, so excited it manages move that only a gymnast would. adrenaline so strong it manages what appears to temporary levitation. with a final prod, the encasted net break in a neat tear. revealing to the world what is unimaginable of the little ugly grub of a caterpillar we first witness it to be.

the butterfly. wings together. climbs out of it shell. the fortress that has kept it safe and warm for the past 10 odd days. it perches itself onto a stalk and freezes. as though to catch its breath. in mere secs, like a new born opening his/her eyelids for the very first time, the butterfly attempts to separate its wings. for the very first time, the world stands witness to an ever-repeating unfolding of a beauty, yet it never gets tired of the breath-taking view of the beauty unveiling.

the butterfly. however impatient to fly, knws that it must wait a minute or more til its wings harden themselves. this is built in instincts. it never learns. neither does it never forgets. at this most vulnerable time, before your finger can touch its wings, the butterfly would attempt to fly away.

almost instantly, the wings disintergrate upon hitting the air, reducing to less than dust.

I want to play a game.

2006-01-21T22:52:00.000+08:00

Hello, Michael. I want to play a game.

So far, what you call this
your life, you've been living watching other.

The society calls you a informer, a rat, a snitch.

I call you unworthy of the body you possess, of the life that have been given.

Now, we will see if you are willing to look in the world better than that, to give up
the one thing you rely on in order to go on living.

The device arround your neck is a
death mask. The mask is on a spring timer. If you do not locate the key in time, the mask will close. Think at this like a carnivorous plant.

What are you looking right now is your own body no more than two hours ago. Don't worry. You were put to sleep and can't feel a thing.

Taking to account that you are a great disadvantage here, I am going to give a hint from where I've hidden the key. So listen carefully. The hint is this: it's right behind your eye!

How much blood you would share to stay
alive, Michael. Live or die.

-----------------------------------

Greetings. And welcome. I trust that you all are wondering where you are. I can assure you that your location it is not important, what this walls offer for you is important.

Salvation.

If you earn it, three hours from now the door to this house will open. But unfortunately you have two hours to live. Right now, you are breathing a deadly nerve agent. you've been breathing since you arrived here. As you are familiar with Tokyo subway attacks will know it's devastating effects on the the human body.

The only way to overcome it and walk out that door, it is to find the antidote. somewhere hidden around this house. One of them is inside that safe in front of you.

You all possess the combination of the safe. Think hard.

The numbers are in the back of your mind. The clues of the order can be found over the rainbow. Once you will realize what you have in common you will be in better understanding why you are here.

X mark the spot of the clue. So, look carefully.

Let the game begin.

-------------------------------

The jigsaw piece that I cut for my subjects was more to be a symbol that at that subject was missing something, a vital piece of the human puzzle: the survival instinct.

-------------------------------

Hello Obi, I want to play a game.

For years you have burnt those around you enough lies and deceits. Now you have a chance to redeem your soul for the games what you played for the other.

By playing one of mine.

Inside of the equipment there are two antidotes for the poison that runs in your veins. One is a present of mine for helping me to kidnap the other ones. The second is yours to donate. However, one of them will have a price.

Remembers that: once you are in hell, only the devil can help you.

-------------------------------

The knowledge of the death changes everything.

If I will tell you the exact date and time of your own death, it will shut your world completely.

Can you imagine what is feel like to have someone sit you down and tell you that you're dying.
The gravity of that? That the clock is ticking for you.

In one second, the world is crack open.
You look at things differently, you smell things differently. You savor everything, either a glass of water or a walk in the park.

Most people have the luxury not knowing when that clock will go off.
And the irony of that is that it keeps from really living their lives.

It keep them drinking that glass of water but not really tasting it.

----------------------------

Those who don't appreciate life, do not deserve life.

-----------------------------

Hello Xavier, I want to play a game.

The game I want to play is very similar with what you give that played as a drug dealer.

The game of offering hope to the desperate for a price. I think we can agree that your situation is desperate. So I offer you hope.

The price you to pay is that you must crawl in the same pit you force yours customers into.

By entering this room, a timer has been started When the time expired, the door in front of you will be locked forever. You must have find the key before that the time runs out. Can you unlocked, with the dreams that are locked inside?

I will give you just one hint that's where the key is. It will be as finding a needle in the heist.

Let the game begin.

----------------------------------

You must meet death if you want to be reborn.

The cure for death itself? The answer is immortality.

By creating a legacy, I'm living a life who's remembers you become immortal.

--------------------------------

You are unworthy of the life that you have been given.

Now that your son faces death, is cause you to forget all his sins.
Because we are only willing to do that when his life is in danger?

---------------------------------

game over.

here is gone

2006-01-20T22:41:00.000+08:00

some irritating fellow: i hope you will be a team player
nathan muir(robert redford): everytime my coach told me that, i knew i was gg to be benched.

coach told me i'm gg to be a team player.

---------------------------------------

what a tiring week. now i knw why the old samuel nv did his hw. too stressful to keep up.. i m still suffering from the aftermath standing in a waterlog field. i have like 20 odd mosquito bite which are killing me. we need to fog that place.

ten things i hate when i m slping

2006-01-19T23:46:00.000+08:00

1) waking up.
2) waking up because of people droning next to you about dota.
3) waking up but not have the energy to get up and kill the fucker.

3 is enough for now. you get my point.

cards and phone calls and photographs, pictures of you.

2006-01-17T23:53:00.000+08:00

*news flash* recon satellite photos have detected several nuclear silos along siglap park connector. -gasp-

lovers' night. we just had to go jogging. yes. i m bitter about it.

------------------------------

charis and sherry are probably in aussie now. shopping for my present i hope. muahaha. its been a long week. will miss them. but strangely, life goes on. take care you two.

------------------------------

did you get my letter i wrote you but i did not send.

i realised my com doesnt lag on blogger in html mode. random comment. anyway. speaking of letters. i better reply my angel if i want my chocolates. and i'll make it fun for my mortal who is a vs boy. bah. so instead of writing him a letter that simply said.

"i'm putting you up for adoption"

i will now write him a 'proper' letter.

blurry.

2006-01-13T22:36:00.000+08:00

roxette. what a great band/singer. not too sure but they're pretty gd. dont feel like talking today. its friday the thirteen and falling in love can spoil many friendships. go listen.

-------------------------------

I pick up the phone, I’m dialing your number
While I pray you’re at home, at home and alone
’cause I can’t function on my own
And I’ll never stop believing

The reapwork is done. you are the one
The radio is on but sound is all gone
And I wanna walk out in the sun
But lately that’s been very hard to do

I’ve got a thing about you
And I don’t really know what to do
’cause I’ve got a thing about you, hey you

I pick up the phone, I’m dialing that number
And my heart like a stone waits for the tone.
Oh, I can’t make it on my own,
And I’ll never stop believing.

I know what is right and this is so wrong
Alone in my bed, better off on my own
The tv is on, but the colours are gone
And lately you’ve been painting my world blue

-roxette

time for blasphemy of the day.

2006-01-12T22:14:00.000+08:00

when the christian/catholic god send rain upon the earth and noah shouldnt have built the ark. he should have made a drainage system. thats why we arent flooded, drowned and dead after 4 days of rain. all of you DO knw the story of noah's ark right? big boat, lots of animals. and what the bible doesnt tell you. there must have been a whole lot of shit on board by the time the flood subsided. see my point. drainage system was a better idea.

sorry. no offence really.

-------------------------------------------------

dont worry john. i got ms tan. i'll take over yr noble work. haha. better not.. a's...

--------------------------------------------------

the world has a strange of spinning round and giving you a good kick in the rear.

just when i felt that i needed to take a slow walk in the rain. to enjoy its serenity and think things over. just when i made all my plans to do so. the world decides to be a bitch. its stops raining.

we only dig deeper by running away.

2006-01-11T22:17:00.000+08:00

we only get one shot at life.

at least i tried. dont ever try to guess what they are thinking. not her.

-----------------------------------------------

saw my first tattoo piercing today. haha. pretty cool stuff. the dude was bloody sarcastic but narvin was bloody stingy too. the old man's place is the sleaz-iest place ard. its the kind of place that you might get aids just by walking into the shop. that smell. ergh....

oh you big puss.

2006-01-09T22:02:00.000+08:00

getting stripped is no joke. i think its bad karma. i should start eating vegetarian and pray. i dont see the link but people do it all the same anyway.

-------------------------------------------------------

foodcourt are digusting places. on the pretext of giving you better service. vendors begins to raise the price of their food. usually, they are overwhelmed by their success of their scheme. hence the quality of food drop. by theory of supply and demand. that should lead to drop in business. however, no evil schemes can succed without the aid of their most powerful sidekick, the fool/s.

such evil schemes tends to spread like the plague/wildfire/commies/virus.... soon it infects the gd system of cheap food. and deprives people like me of cheap and good food. one of kenn's random comments,

"i had to sell my pokemon cards to buy lunch."

he said that in protest against getting charge a buck for ogl form. but what the heck. the viewers dont have to knw that. unfortunately i do not have pokemon cards to sell and so i didnt become an ogl. anyway. i digress.

well. does the origin of this filth polluting the cheap tasty hawker/food court system sound familar to all you VS boys? -hint hint-

kenn also says that i should try to be more compromising to our communist counterparts(counterparts. yuck. sounds like we are trying to be friends.) oh well. that would just have to wait to be add to 2007's resolution.

stereotypical minds.

2006-01-08T23:14:00.000+08:00

just watched constantine.

movie makers are all the same. americans. the frogs. the brits. the richer asian. everyone except the poor directors who cant afford it, seem to have this outgoing war with the germans. almost every movie you see, there is some implication that the germans are the bad guys.

man touches spear wrapped in nazi flag. next moment. man is possessed by the devil himself. so the spear is fabled to killed jesus.

take taxi(the original one, and the lousy one for that matter) the germans are always the bad guys. no objections to them making the japs the bad guy in taxi 2 though.

somehow every show, there will always be a bad guy. and if he is not german or jap. he will drive a german car. save the directors that cant afford it. aka bollywood. the bad guy normally rides a bike or doesnt have a car.

so the nazi's killed 6 million jews. we heard enough about that. quit harping on the past. hitlers dead. so they started the two wars. but they dont have nuclear capablitites(do they?). they wont start another. give them a break already.

all the lights burn out.

2006-01-08T22:29:00.000+08:00

the way 2006 is gg. i dont think i m liking it..

--------------------------------------------

when a monk/celebrity performs a publicity stunt in hope of raising funds, what do they actually acheive from it? seriously. nothing. so the people are dying.

yet thousands die everyday. wheres yr bleeding sympathy for them?

the fact that people are dying and the only way for the rest of us to pay attention is that someone else, a celebrity, whose lives seems to be valued higher than the rest of us.

people are dying and what we do is attempt to waste another in hope of raising aid leaves alot to be said about the human race.

----------------------------------------------

awful silence after the rain. the only audible sounds are the typing on the keyboard. the slowing pulse of the pattering raindrops on zinc roofs. and my sis and dad talking about the show all the way from downstairs.

time to dump out the 2005 AMG calendar.

mad about you.

2006-01-07T22:07:00.000+08:00

her picture on my wall. i think i m in love. deep.

but i have to shape up. i m getting too fat for my own gd. if she can lose 30 kg. i can lose some pounds too.

diet time.

was feeling rather melancholy until i met her tonight. strange thing love does to people.

-------------------------------------------------

its not too gd to blog about events that happen yesterday. for me at least. i cant remember what i wanted to say. great now i have to watch lords of dog town again.

the pursue of fame and fortune has been known to have its devastating effects. it somehow manages to blind our souls to what is/was essentially important in our hearts. somehow, the knowledge of fame and fortune brings us into the real world. a rat race for survival. to be at the top.

the taste of fame can be more addictive than drugs. just once and you will crave for more.

giving up the simple childhood fantasy where nothing really mattered quickly fades and becomes a blurry point over the far horizon when we all take that step out of our own world into the real one. sad but true. thats life.

-------------------------------------------------

i love you but you dont care.

tension

2006-01-07T21:14:00.000+08:00

Psychologically, tension means excited expectation or apprehension of a proposed event which is either particularly desired or feared. Physically, tension describes a force within a resilient body. Mechanical tension (symbol s) is the force per surface unit which acts in an imaginary section plane through a body, a fluid or a gas. TENSION is also the most important instrument of playwrights and authors for motivating the viewer and reader to watch and read further.

a thing about you.........

2006-01-05T23:03:00.000+08:00

and she scolds me for talking to her on msn.. when we are two rooms apart? remember? nice to have fans anyway.

---------------------------------------------

i wont be surprise if we get called up tmr.. the announcement probably goes like this.

yesterday. the college received a call from an concerned member of the public. he told us he saw a group of vjc students, male, at burger king having a conversation. besides being loud and obnoxious, the students were telling alot of racist jokes...yada yada yada...

alright. maybe it wont go like that. but i dont think like a teacher alright. i got my 16pf. i m a construction worker. give me my yellow boots and you get PCK. wow. i always wanted to operate one of those digging machine things. i also dream of driving a nice bmw. but the way things are gg. i'll probably end up with a japanese tin-can when i m 40. hopefully i dont have to resort to a proton or hyundai (dont do it sam). lets hope i get lucky. you can always rely on the big red merc.

------------------------------------------------

pls dont talk to me. i m in one of those phase where everything i say and do seems to be incoherent. experience tells me that people take that as a sign that i m mentally unsound or i m just plain weird. -you keep quiet- anyway. i m sure it'll be over soon.

the way my brain is wired. you can hear the wires fusing if you are close enough.

you only get one shot at life.

2006-01-04T21:05:00.000+08:00

i guess its time to get down and study. but my body tells me to slp in lessons. my head tells me to skip lessons. and my heart... we'll leave it at that.

------------------------------------------------

i have gotten down to improve my gp. for starters, i m attending lessons now. breathe people. dont get too shock. and i m reading a thick, thick book that is supp to help improve yr vocab. gg well so far. got through 6 pages. wow. 2000 more to go. i just crapped up some number. anyway. the pt is. the book is thick. very thick. my dad is trying to download the 'toad' nonsense again. dont even knw why he bothers. this stupid com cant even load ie under half a min. lag up the com even further. i had to uninstall heroes 4 the instant i installed it during the hols. cause it hanged while loading about ten times and to move my mouse in the game takes about a min. we are just talking about moving the cursor here. anyway. enough about me griping. you talk about me for a while. haha. who has the biggest ego now.

cool movie mr chua showed us today. besides the fact only 3 people went (thank you -bows- thank you) and he wasnt even there. yea. we knw you have the booth thing.. haha. anyway. that was an awesome movie. its amazing how people actually find movies like that. do they actually go buy random dvds and watch to see if its gd. but honestly. that is truly unexpected for an malaysian production. wow. cliche though. strange end too.

-----------------------------------------------------

orientation was... erm... shant comment.

new year's resolution.

2006-01-02T14:58:00.000+08:00

And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
Cuz I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
And desire and love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

-goo goo dolls.

alright. i lie. heck with world peace. you lied too. so we dont win the pagent. big deal.

we lust for the things we cant seem to grasp.

2006-01-01T22:27:00.000+08:00

i dont knw if this happens to all of us in general or just me. we dont seem to treasure what we have and constantly desired not what we do not have. but more, what others have but we do not. we often dream about his new computer or his girlfriend. and we put our focus on how great it would be to be in his shoes. this often leads to us neglecting things and people we already have, or opportunities we could have had.

the sickening thing about life is. after you have failed miserably at trying to achieve what you think was the best for you. be it getting into that guy's gf's pants or chasing that one thing someone else have. after you have failed and you are just broken. you cant achieve what you setted out to achieve. you realize you have been chasing pipe dreams all this time. it is always at that very moment that life slaps you back into reality, that you realise what you actually had and possessed. all the opportunities at yr fingertips. just passed you by, and they are not coming back. or maybe to someone else who actually grab the opportunity when it knocks.

the irony in life then sets in. after lots of thinking. alot of complaining. griping. drinking. hangovers. you finally realised where the problem in life lies. it is you yourself all along. you could kick yrself in the butt for not realising until it's too late. too late. the echoes of angels they wont return.

flaw in human nature or plain stupidity?

samuel has been captured by aliens. happy new year.

you cant stop the tears that aint coming.

2005-12-26T23:43:00.000+08:00

i love goo goo dolls. almost as much as i love simpsons. heres a good one. homer j simpson inherits the duff industry(beer company). he is called to a board meeting.

homer simpson - (enters room) mr burns. what are you doing here.
montgomery burns - surprise, simpson. meet the proud owner of forty-nine percent of duff industries.
hs - (looks around frantically at empty room) who?
mb - me, you idiot.
hs - oh. wait a minute.... let's see, forty-nine percent... out of one hundred percent... carry the one... (aside) marge, if he owns forty-nine per...
marge - you own firty-one percent.hs - D'OH. i knew it was too good to be true.
lisa - dad, you own more.
hs - WOO HOO!. i own more. i own more.

------------------------------------------------------

calvin - do you believe in the devil? you knw a supreme evil being dedicated to the temptation, corruption and destruction of man?
hobbes - i'm not sure man needs the help.

the strangest thing is i agree with that.

i m missing out of a big drinking party here.

2005-12-26T22:54:00.000+08:00

So if that thing(nitride) there blows...
...and I don't believe in Allah, I'm going to Hell?
You're all the bloody same, aren't you?
Born-agains say I don't believe in Jesus, so I'll go to hell.
Jews say I do believe in Jesus, I'll go to Hell.
Catholics say I don't believe in the pope, I'll go to Hell.
So any way you look at it, I'm in the shit.

-vertical limit

p.s. no offence to the muslims. i think the guy was being cynical against religion as a whole. true blue atheist. positive attitude.i like..

-------------------------------------------------------

my sis is so light. she sits on the armchair and pulls the handle to make it sink. it just remain unchanged.

-----------------------------------------------------

i think i owe bert my man an apology and an explaination. we are sorry we left you out along with many others. it was kind of last min and we are gg to have another one soon with more people. and you're invited. add me on msn alright.. i cant seem to find you.

the saga begins.

2005-12-26T22:18:00.000+08:00

for some strange reason i dled this song again. eat yr hearts out star wars fans. up to date, the total count i knw of is : 2. cheok and john. eat your hearts out. from the man who brought you 'barney's on fire'.... weird al yankovic.

----------------------------------------------------

A long, long time ago
In a galaxy far away
Naboo was under an attack
And I thought me and Qui-Gon Jinn
Could talk the federation in
To maybe cutting them a little slack
But their response, it didn't thrill us
They locked the doors and tried to kill us
We escaped from that gas
Then met Jar Jar and Boss Nass
We took a bongo from the scene
And we went to Theed to see the Queen
We all wound up on Tatooine
That's where... we found... this boy

Oh,
My my this here Anakin guy
May be Vader someday later - now he's just a small fry
He left his home and kissed his mommy goodbye
Sayin' "Soon I'm gonna be a Jedi, Soon I'm gonna be a Jedi"

Did you know this junkyard slave
Isn't even old enough to shave
But he can use the Force, they say

Ahh, do you see him hitting on the queen
Though he's just nine and she's fourteen
Yeah, he's probably gonna marry her someday

Well, I know he built C-3PO
And I've heard how fast his pod can go
And we were broke, it's true
So we made a wager or two
He was a prepubescent flyin' ace
And the minute Jabba started off that race
Well, I knew who would win first place
Oh yes, it was our boy

We started singin' ...
My my this here Anakin guy
May be Vader someday later - now he's just a small fry
And he left his home and kissed his mommy goodbye
Sayin' "Soon I'm gonna be a Jedi, Soon I'm gonna be a Jedi"

Now we finally got to Coruscant
The Jedi Council we knew would want
To see how good the boy could be
So we took him there and we told the tale
How his midi-chlorians were off the scale
And he might fulfill that prophecy
Oh, the Council was impressed, of course
Could he bring balance, to the Force?
They interviewed the kid
All training they forbid
Because Yoda sensed in him much fear
And Qui-Gon said "Now listen here"
"Just stick it in your pointy ear"
"I still will teach this boy"

He was singin' ...
My my this here Anakin guy
May be Vader someday later - now he's just a small fry
And he left his home and kissed his mommy goodbye
Sayin' "Soon I'm gonna be a Jedi, Soon I'm gonna be a Jedi"

We caught a ride back to Naboo
'Cause Queen Amidala wanted to
I frankly would've liked to stay
We all fought in that epic war
And it wasn't long at all before
Little Hotshot flew his plane and saved the day
And in the end some Gungens died
Some ships blew up and some pilots fried
A lot of folks were croakin'
The battle droids were broken
And the Jedi I admire most
Met up with Darth Maul and now he's toast
Well, I'm still here and he's a ghost
I guess I'll train this boy

And I was singin' ...
My my this here Anakin guy
May be Vader someday later - now he's just a small fry
And he left his home and kissed his mommy goodbye
Sayin' "Soon I'm gonna be a Jedi, Soon I'm gonna be a Jedi"

We were singin' ...
My my this here Anakin guy
May be Vader someday later - now he's just a small fry
And he left his home and kissed his mommy goodbye
Sayin' "Soon I'm gonna be a Jedi"

orexis

2005-12-25T00:29:00.000+08:00

I have a question.

Say we get into the cage and through the security doors...
...down the eleyatorwe can't move...
...past the guards with the guns, into the vauIt we can't open...

(And not seen by cameras)

Yeah, well, say we do all that...
...we're just supposed to walk out of there with $ 150 million...
...without getting stopped?

-------------------------------------------------

who's this. haha. the irony is sickening. hahaha.

merry christmas.

2005-12-24T14:49:00.000+08:00

the rain creates an artificial silence. so calm its intoxicating. the world fades to black.

-----------------------------------------

met up with isa and cheok last night. holy crap. cheoks newly-renovated place is the place to be. the place is freaking nice. went to changi v for their fantastic (thats what they say) nasi lemak.

fishing trips are always great fun. its not about how many fish you catch, or how many worms or hums (cockles) you lose or name. neither is it the many sinkers, hooks and lines you lose when you cast away. its the simple things that make it fun like casting yr bell into the sea. ten, twenty years down the road. we will look back at our fishing trips and think of peter hum. the dutch. heine and ken. even that stupid bell i cast. it is the company you are in that is truly enjoyable. fishing is probably the best excuse anyone can have to meet up and just talk.

-------------------------------------------

the rain comes and goes.

moral of the story.

2005-12-22T20:57:00.000+08:00

when the cyclops, Polyphemus, son of Poseidon, captured Odysseus and his crew, he asked for Odysseus's name, and was told that he was Nobody. When Odysseus plunged the red-hot rod into Polyphemus's eye, he screamed in pain and woke the other giants. he screamed in pain saying, "it was Nobody" when asked. and nobody came to help him.

d2.

2005-12-21T01:06:00.000+08:00

i think you blew it. again.

------------------------------------------------

i still have derricks d2. hope he's not missing it. got to return him soon. haha. playing it now. its not my fault i cant play any other games. save heroes 3. bah. i hate flayers. the most annoying part of the game is that the small pricks are the pain in the ass. wait. that sounds wrong. i meant the small fellows are the vicious ones.

training tmr. finally i get out of the hse. away from the com. i m starting to like the dvd recorder. minus the fact that i dont knw when i m watching playbacks and when i m watching live teevee. i doubt i will miss much anyway. its still free to air teevee. wait a min. i do knw when i m watching live teevee. its says live. cool. (for all of you who did not understand that, i've probably lost my mind. pay no attention)

------------------------------------------------

my sis downloaded photographs by nickelback. random comments 101. anyway. fishing on fri. tentatively. anyone with fishing rods to spare?

moviemakers never fail to amaze.

2005-12-19T13:38:00.000+08:00

isnt it amazing how a symbol from one of the greatest love story of all time can be evolved to become the ultimate horror story of all time. yup. you guess it right. i just figured how to add photos to my blog.

hi my name is samuel. and i am an....

2005-12-19T00:06:00.000+08:00

haha. still pretty gd to catch up with old friends. pretty funky party.

---------------------------------------------

either i havent been home too often or i just dont pay attention. my mum has apparently been moody for the past few days. with my dad joining her occasionally. hmm. guilty on both charges i guess.

-----------------------------------------------

lotr is pretty cool. the filming is fantastic. the story gets abit gay though. -coughfrodosamcough-. anyway. thats what the fast forward button is for. one of the amazing inventions. lets give it up for.. whats his name? lets give it up for whoever invented the fast forward button anyway.

anyway. i caught a bit of interview with the vampire III. bloody stupid show. firstly. everyone's a vampire. those who are not are either promoted quickly, or are hell guards. what a dumb story. and the effects are as believable as ryan su saying he's not gay. and wrestling is even dumber. i cant believe there are dicks out there who buy wwe shirts and WEAR them. unbelievable. booker-T. i dont really care how you spell his name. i m not even sure if that is him. i think i heard the likes of that from the almost muted television speakers. (i dont want my dad to wake up). anyway. twice i have seen him fight. thrice actually. (sometimes i dont have anything to watch. i dont have cable. sue me.) twice his wife beat the shit out of the other guy for him. what a pussy. anyway. the point is. their fighting is so fake. i didnt stick around to find out if his wife beat the shit out of the other guy. again.

----------------------------------------------

man there were alot of trainers today. the whole gang was there. didnt get my 3 star cleared. met jackson. hope his 3star went fine. the rest of the course was pretty fine. ended early. there was some kop from some cc. not being racist but i have nv seen that many malays before. 100 of them. no issue of course. heard the beachfront was pretty conjested. bah. lucky i was at the creek. hmm. feathering. shall try it. thanks xiaohei.

i got a nice tan. whee. more of a burn.. but what the heck. no one can tell the diff.

the world is going mad.

2005-12-17T21:11:00.000+08:00

i think i will have an early night. there isnt enough food to sustain me. my dad and mum are lecturing about everything.

and remind me again. is it a good sign when yr com just fell into pieces. strangely. i can still use it.

the world is gg mad.

hi my name is.....

2005-12-17T20:53:00.000+08:00

minus the fact wei invited me 3 hrs b4 the bbq. everything was pretty cool. martini. shaken not stirred. dont we all love punch. played indian poker for the first time. stupid kafai. kept "dropping" his card. well. i m glad john pushed him in. together with ivan's bike. was supp to me. but the rebel forces were dissolved. muahahahaha. theres nth like a vs party.

-------------------------------------------------

its been a rough day. waking up early and slping late does not make a good team. remember that.

met jon sam at the club today. haha. had my share of coaching. sh was just slacking in the background playing water. havent seen such choppy waves in a long time. i understand what john was talking about already. damn fun. hope we go out to deep water tmr. i should pass my 3 star hopefully. my hours are in a mess. die.

i think i make a good singaporean.

2005-12-16T15:14:00.000+08:00

was playing heroes just now. you knw you are a good singaporean when you attack the opponent with 50 black dragons, 120 manticores, 300 war unicorns, about 500 medusa queens and evil eyes and 300 magogs. of course the opponent did have some troops. quite impressive. they managed to kill 3 of my dragons. they had like 300 pikesmen. and the knight in shining armor coming back to save the castle had the most fearsome troops of them all... 48 skeletons. hear my bones rattle with fear. that was offset by my 1000 warrren thing-ies. cant remember how to spell them. they hold small spears and are green with pretty red markings. not too powerful. but anything that comes in 1000s in this game is. 'persuading' yr enemies was the objective. rather persuasive. if i may say so myself.

there you have it. i m a good sinaporean. i shall dig up my scout belt. it says 'pengakap bersedia' which is be prepared. glad to be a scout. haha.

could the prophecies be true.

2005-12-15T22:47:00.000+08:00

its like the day i have been fearing ever since i could think might be arriving sooner than i thought.

------------------------------------------------------

my sis's friend was at some bookshop that day. so the ST reporter went forth to interview her.

ST: do you read this book? (holds up a copy of urban legends)
friend: nope.
ST: can you pose with it anyway? (pass her the book and takes her photo) thanks.
(friend is annoyed)

the reporter was about to leave when the photograher reminded him to ask for her name and age. and there you have it. as you can see from the article on the ST promoting the book. my sis's friend made alot of useful quotes from the book she has never read. and wasnt intending to. muahaha. talk about ethics.

in case you are wondering, urban legend is some singapore publication.

---------------------------------------------------------

my dad just made me dl a program called toad. TOAD? wonder what you do with it. make potions or kiss it to get a prince. damn i m getting lame.

"the man who wouldnt die". a whole mag of pistol bullets and he didnt die. it makes me wonder about life after a spinal injury. constant pain. paralysis. from a well bodied person to a disabled man. certainly food for thought. some of us arent grateful to be alive.

SAW.

2005-12-13T22:38:00.000+08:00

the guy in saw 2 is not the same as the one in saw. my bad.

Dr Gordon - What's your name?
Adam - My name is very fucking confused.What's your name? What's going on here?

Dr Gordon - What's the last thing you remember?
Adam - Nothing. I went to bed in my shit-hole apartmentand woke up in an actual shit-hole.

Adam - This is what they do.They kidnap you and drug you and before you know it, you're in a bathtub and your kidneys are on eBay.

---------------------------------------

Rise and shine, Adam.
You're probably wondering where you are.
I'll tell you where you might be. You might be in the room that you die in.
Up until now,you simply sat in the shadows... watching others live out their lives.
What do voyeurs see when they look into the mirror?
Now, I see you as a strange mix...of someone angry and yet apathetic.
But mostly just pathetic.

So are you going to watch yourself die today, Adam?
Or do something about it?

---------------------------------------

Dr. Gordon. This is your wake-up call.
Every day of your working life,you have given people the news...that they are going to die soon.
Now you will be the cause of death.

Your aim in this game is to kill Adam. You have until 6:00 on the clock to do it.
There's a man in the room with you. When there is that much poison in your blood, the only thing left to do...is shoot yourself.
There are ways to win this...hidden all around you.
Just remember:"X" marks the spot for the treasure.

If you do not kill Adam by 6:00 then Alison and Diana will die, Dr. Gordon. And I'll leave you in this room to rot.

Let the game begin.

-------------------------------------------

Hello, Paul. You're a perfectly healthy, sane, middle-class male. Yet, last month, you ran a straight razor across your wrists.
Did you hurt yourself because you truly wanted to die..or did you just want some attention?

Tonight, you'll show me.

The irony is that if you want to die you just have to stay where you are. But if you want to live,you'll have to cut yourself again.
One path through the razor wire to the door. But hurry. At 3:00 that door will lock... and then this room becomes your tomb.

How much blood will you shed to stay alive, Paul?

----------------------------------------

Hello, Mark, if you're so sick... then why do I haveso many photos of you up and about?

Let's put your so-called illness to the test.

Right now,there is a slow-acting poison in your veins. The antidote is inside the safe. The combination to the safe... is written on the wall. Hurry up and program it in. But watch your step.
By the way, that's flammable substance smeared on your body. So I would be careful with that candle, if I were you... or all the people you've burned with your act... just might have their revenge.

----------------------------------------

Hello, Amanda. You don't know me, but I know you.

I want to play a game.

Here's what happens if you lose. The device you're wearing is hooked into your upper and lower jaws. When the timer at the back goes off... your mouth will be permanently ripped open. Think of it like a reverse bear trap. Here, I'll show you. There is only one key to open the device. It's in the stomach of your dead cellmate. Look around, Amanda.Know that I'm not lying. You better hurry up.

Live or die. Make your choice.

-------------------------------------

Listen carefully, if you will. There are rules.

Sick from the disease eating away at me inside.
Sick of people who don't appreciate their blessings.
Most people are so ungrateful to be alive.

---------------------------------

game over.

compliments of greg.

2005-12-13T22:05:00.000+08:00

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia.

José and his Amazing Technicolour Overcoat is a comedy sketch first performed for Gift Grub on Ireland's Today FM. It parodies the musical Joseph and the Amazing Technicolour Dreamcoat as well as Chelsea manager José Mourinho. It received media attention in the UK by becoming popular on online message boards, London's Capital Gold and when José Mourinho himself said he liked the skit and invited impersonator Mario Rosenstock to a player's dinner to perform it. A follow up skit was produced entitled I Sign a Little Player or Two. An agreement has been made with Jose Mourinho with Mario to release both songs as singles for Christmas 2005.

they took the song "any dream will do" from the musical. i think you chelsea fans will like this. there was more. before and after the song. but i m lazy to listen and write out the song. oh well. here you go.

--------------------------------------------------------------

I close my eyes, and stand there grinning (woah-oh),
We can't stop winning (woah-oh), you'd be grinning too.

When I first came (when he first came), I was delighted (woah-oh),
Could've managed United (woah-oh), any team will do.

I wore my coat (he wears his coat), the world is merry (woah-oh),
I've got John Terry (woah-oh) and Drogba too..

I switch them round (he switches round), they all are hating (woah-oh)
But I like rotating (woah-oh), any team will do.

A corner kick, is just enough, a little flick from Damien Duff,
The ball flies right into the net and we are one-nil up...(one-nil! one-nil! one-nil!)

May I return (may I return), to the beginning (woah-oh),
so easy winning (woah-oh), when your team is blue (blue is the colour).

We can't go wrong (we can't go wrong), I am in heaven (woah-oh)
Playing whatever eleven (woah-oh), any team will do!!

og loc.

2005-12-12T22:26:00.000+08:00

haha. gta san andreas. ultimate gt. whee. john knws what i m talking about.

its times like this i wished i have a ps2. nfs:most wanted. bah. so near but yet so far. can i bunk at yr place when you get it john? muahahaha. rx-8 at its coolest... muahahahaha. talk about chicks.

------------------------------------------------------

well. i picked this up from john's book of quotations during our little mugging session. yup. we are muggers too. sounds like a line from exxon-mobil's advertisments.

"crime is a logical extension of the sort of behaviour that is often considered perfectly respectable in legitimate businesses"

taken.

2005-12-11T22:03:00.000+08:00

maybe this is it. it'll end here. but its been a great time.

could the stories be true. but then i ask myself. do i care.

so you live to die another day. -James Bond 007.

---------------------------------------------

ocip people. give me yr links and add me on msn. i dont have the contact list.

orexis.

2005-12-11T00:07:00.000+08:00

finally a night in singapore that feels so much more than just sitting in front of the comp til my eyes black out.

i love the siglap park connector. its the one place in singapore that emulates that of cambodia nights. where people are seemingly doing nothing but the meaning to it all. the meaning to something as simple as sitting there and talk or just listen is so much more.

back to more computer. got to win heroes without cheating.

trina's back.

dont you love the life you've killed.

2005-12-09T22:41:00.000+08:00

after 3 or 4 nights back in singapore. i m starting to miss cambodia already.
i miss having the company of so many people no matter where you turn.
you wake up in the middle of the night knowing that you are not alone.
and if you pay close attention you can hear nigel's fantasy.
and other inappropriate behaviour from certain people.
for nightly entertainment we have irc and the marcus and muddy show.
with the occasional star-gazing/mosquito feeding sessions.

i m back. been back for quite awhile. wont be able to kayak for a while.cause of my leg. i m lazy to recount about cambodia. just ask me at yr free time. stupid report made recounting all unpleasant.

i feel like the ultimate pig. i had two cups of starbucks' free coffee. being a true singaporean. muahahaha.

dont it feel like sunshine after all.

2005-11-24T09:37:00.000+08:00

why is my departure starting to feel like i m nv gg to return?

the feeling of being overweight sucks.

2005-11-24T09:17:00.000+08:00

i m off to look for land mines.

orange brandy.

2005-11-23T14:17:00.000+08:00

just watched gangs of new york. didnt really understand a single thing they were doing. just a really messy show. probabl have some deep and profound lit and hist meaning behind it which in my current state of mind is not able to process. i seriously doubt i could even if i was in a clear state of mind. anyway. my eyes are blurring out. i probably should get off the com and get my ass to training. (my ass is cramping.)

weather - wet.

i need to start on some of my packing or my mum will start to nag. (here comes the meter man). i have a lack of clothing unfortunately. i think i m suffering sickness from staying home too long. got to get out.

its a wet wet day.

2005-11-22T23:37:00.000+08:00

the gym floor is hard. i can tell you that. spasms in my thighs are not helping. i keep thinking i received a msg.

-----------------------------------------------------------

i shall now gloat at the news of this china guy felling to his death. not too humane but i just cant stand these commies. i dont knw why. they just bug me. its like hitler and the jews. anti-semitism. i m like anti-communism or smth. theres something really really wrong with me. but oh well.

it seems that this commie guy was too excited playing the guitar and he did a cartwheel out of his 3rd story hostel room. mean how high can you get. he was probably sniffing glue or smth. people think its a great loss. he hasnt even started studying. the way i see it, theres no loss. there are too many of them anyway. but my condelences to his family all the same.

its tough being mean and nice at the same time. its like crossing gargamel and smurfette. yuck.

anyway. dexter reminded me that my dislike/vile hatred for the commies is reflected in our past.

in his words. 50 yrs ago. the mats(malays in general. i dont think they had mats in those times) were probably saying the same things about yr grandparents.

note that there is no racial bigotry here. i m not promoting racial disorder or whatever you may term it. sorry orange.

banana phone.

2005-11-21T23:01:00.000+08:00

ultimate song. in the words of i cant remember who. roxxor. whatever that means.

----------------------------------------------------

slping at 8 everyday has made blogging a luxury i cannot have. but i m back. no time to celebrate cause i will be off real soon. on sat night. i was gg to blog about dexter famous lines. but i fell aslp. yesterday. i was determined to complete it. but after my sisters and mum cut off harry potter falling from the car. to watch meteor garden 2. i was really pissed. stupid thai actors/actress. so i went upstairs. the computer called to me. but the bed played dirty. who am i to resist Sleep?

today. i m gg to complete it. one problem. i cant remember what i had for dinner. wait. i had fish. anyway the point is i cant remember what dex said on sat.. but i'll do my best. viewer discretion.

-----------------------------------------------------

darn it. i can only remember one. haha. ultimate dex. darn funny. a54 senior. he said this to xurong who was having a sore throat.

"next time spit. dont swallow."

oh well. thats all folks. sorry to disappoint.

the world you love.

2005-11-17T22:23:00.000+08:00

the exorcist is a disappointment. they cut out the only two scenes i remembered.

the whole day has been pretty much a disappointment. finally op has ended. the whole god damn pw shit has ended and i spend my day watching dumb video clips like happy tree friends.

ever since the o's. have you felt like we are so caught up in reality that we have forgotten how to have fun. how to enjoy. i mean even after the exams. it just doesnt feel right. you just cant let go completely and just enjoy. i do.

damn it. my life is getting too real. and we need a class outing.

----------------------------------------------------

i should stop thinking. it complicates life. greatly.

rubik's cube.

2005-11-14T22:20:00.000+08:00

somebody teach me

Yukon Ho!

2005-11-12T23:31:00.001+08:00

my back hurts... YOU pick the cotton. i'll get the shirts made..and... together(exaggerated action) we wholesale...

i still remember the indian cotton picker/slave in russell peters. she used to love that guy. but its long gone. maybe not....

-----------------------------------------------------------------

cant kayak. i got to start prioritising my time. tell me if i spell that right. as i was saying. i got to finish my three star quick. i got the expeditions. i forgot about Victorian Challenge. shall ask jonathan oh to sign.

speaking of him. i swear the camp instructors are a bunch of bums. current ones i meant. our batch turned out pretty alright. thats what happens when the school goes to the dogs. you have 10 or so instructors trying to catch one nice little kitten in the confinement of their puny little room. and after an hour, they still cant do it. despite trying to KILL the poor little thing.
seriously. and the school is flooded with roaches. jacob killed close to 40 and i killed 10. plus the walls are still cracking. damn exploitations i tell you (see VS canteen) shant start the whole debate about overpriced food for sake of 'cleaniness' and charging for ice.

---------------------------------------------------------------

i love old kungfu novels. tv series i meant. huang rong is so darn pretty.

bloodbath.

2005-11-11T22:55:00.000+08:00

people are having fun and i m missing out on it. bah. its strange the whole world is offline. oh well. hint to go to bed. i need the slp. just weird.

----------------------------------------------------------

i dont usually blog about carrom but today was a bloodbath. my blood of course. good going kaka and gab. haha. hope gab enjoyed dinner. hahaha.

on a sidenote. i almost finished megaman X4.. finally got to see the grim reaper, sigma.. all his forms. whee. after how many years.

rapture. argh!!!

2005-11-10T20:53:00.000+08:00

wheres the clothes? haha.

------------------------------------------------------------------

ii was having dinner with my parents just now. so there i was next to my mum ordering beef noodles. and i just stared as she prepare some weird mixture of sauce. i just stood there with my bowl of noodles and stared. there i was thinking who in the blue hell would eat something like that and my dad comes along and prepares the exact same thing.so maybe i m the weird one. well. unique taste doesnt run in the family i must say.

-----------------------------------------------------------------

i knw i've said this before. but what the heck.

mindhunters. a wholesome family movie. ah..

now for exorcist and emily rose. i hope she gets possessed quick. i dont want to fall aslp waiting for the supernatural to do their work. emily rose. what a cool name.

if you leave our world tomorrow.

2005-11-08T21:02:00.000+08:00

you two people are very special people. you mean more to me than there is space here to express.

i love you all.

your sudden departure is unwanted. life has to go on. have a gd time there and bring back nice presents. :p

i'll be funny again tomorrow. trust me.