i fell behind.

the most amazing thing about humans isnt about all the inventions we've made that. or how we can kill each other and everything else with the inventions. what never fails to amaze me is how we can always come up with wide range of excuses for everything that goes wrong. we could catalogue all our excuses into dumb/dumbest/i-cant-believe-you-tried-that. but more simply. the purpose or a summary of all these excuses can be simplified to 'it wasnt me, its his/her fault.'

if done well enough. a great mind could turn a excuse into the noblest act. seemingly saintly to the none-the-wiser world. hmm. imagine a senario. a guy gives up a girl. for 'her happiness', he would rather 'suffer' without her and let her be happy. but think of it in another light. maybe the guy was just lazy or tired of trying. he wants out. but how not to seem the jerk. hmm.. i wonder. remember dan brown's 'so dark the con of man'. haha. maybe the guy doesnt love her enough to try harder. or maybe he just dont deserve her. its amazing what a well placed excuse can be manipulated into.

who wouldnt want the best of both worlds. and sometimes the lies we tell ourselves. to let us slp at night, are so dark and deceitful. they can easily deceive the slightly less cynical of man. if a guy falls so in love with a girl, but the girl. not wanting to hurt him, manages to keep his attention showered on her. yet behind the scenes. she makes out with two guys she knws he doesnt like. drunk maybe. or maybe just another excuse. but what is cost if one fool is willing. but it is two will pay the price.

we only treasure what we've lost.

we are, we are all innocent - our lady peace.

we lust for the things we cant seem to grasp.